Less then 2 Weeks
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As the title says, in less then two weeks I will be basking in the glory of Christmas and my home. I doubt I could be more eager to go home then I am now. With Christmas, family and friends it is time to go back home and re connect with all for more then just a few days but rather a month.
Christmas in itself creates a very warm feeling in which brings so many people together and closer to there homes.
In the relative near future I have hopes, perhaps false, of a chance or glimmer towards a relationship. That for now waits to be seen, and thats ok. Time is a wonderful thing in some ways.
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I'm looking forward to going home too.
Well, actually I'm looking forward to the plane ride. I haven't been on an aircraft since over five years.
Once I get home I'll be looking more forward to the plane ride back.
I am, in fact, going to be cutting my vacation very short (or, as I like to put it, simply vacationing for the rest of the break in Burlington) and coming back up here on the 5th or the 7th of January (I haven't decided which one yet, but I'm leaning towards the 5th).
Why? Well, I think you know some of the reasons. But aside from that fact that I don't have to haul wood or shovel snow up here, I also don't have anything socially there which I don't have here (nothing). I mean, I'm looking forward to seeing everyone just to see how everyone is doing, but that only takes what, a night?
It's good to hear you have hopes for a relationship. My experience here was exactly in line with my expectations but far from my hopes, which is that things are completely identical to high school. Oh, maybe I should count the one time I ate dinner with a girl as friends? I suppose that was farther than I got in high school, but that's just a difference of the living style and the location and in the end, that situation caused me a lot more pain than it was worth.
Now with around 10% of my college career completed (the end of the semester marks 12.5%) I realize that this isn't what people made it out to be, college isn't going to be the best four years of my life: its going to be the rest of my life. I love living on my own, I love the school, I love the location, but I do exactly what I'm going to do everyday for the rest of my life - get up, go to work (in this case class) finish up the day and do more of my own personal work and fulfill my other responsibilities (like EMS). I don't spend vast quantities of time hanging out with friends, which is what college should probably be about. I could, but honestly I want to do something other than play video games, drink and smoke weed. And really the only person who isn't like that in this program is, well, the girl that I ate dinner with a while back, and now I don't have a chance with her and can't be her friend because I can't even bring myself to step inside her suite because I have to face the realities of the situation.
The bottom line is that I haven't gotten anywhere and I'm not going to get anywhere anytime soon, and that's just something I've accepted and moved on about. I enjoy my life and my time here and I can live without that social element comfortably enough. I just wish people didn't make this out to be something that its not. But then, what did I expect, the same people who told me that were the same people in high school who actually did experience some measure of success.
But all and all, enjoying myself the best way I can having come to terms with my fate.
See you at Christmas.
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